I feel like I've been apologizing a lot lately.  I think each time has been 
a valid reason to apologize but it's still difficult to rationalize it when
half the time the exact words are "I'm sorry I'm insane."

Some things that have happened: 

Driving home from work feeling very bad about myself and a woman standing 
at the freeway offramp says something to me.  The window is rolled up so 
I mouth "what?" and roll it down.  She procedes to tell me I am a horrible 
person.  I drive away in tears.  Random assault from a random person.

Feeling sassy and wearing a short dress with big boots, I swing my leg out of
the car and notice that I'm flashing a fair bit of flesh.  A car is pulling
out of the spot next to me and I wonder if they are going to do something that
would upset me.  Instead it is a middle aged woman and she gives me a big 
thumbs up as she drives away.  That made me feel good.

Turning 30 in less than a month.  Huge mash of emotions.  In some ways it's
very liberating and in other ways I feel like a complete failure.  I know
exactly what I want to do with my life now and I'm afraid to even start to
try because I don't want to fail again.